(Wisdom 17:1-3/Rule of Benedict 7:44-45)
Have you ever hidden something wrong you’ve done deep within yourself, fearing what might happen if people knew the truth? Fear is powerful and multifaceted. The longer it persists the stronger it becomes. We can fear many things – among them may be harsh judgment, being completely vulnerable, misunderstandings, damage to relationship. In my history, these secrets are so much more damaging to my faith journey than those in the outside world. I’ve learned by trying to bury unloving or sinful thoughts and actions, that they remain, unhealed and painful, until they are humbly spoken, confessed, shared, or written about. It is a great risk. But in finding trusted friends, the Sacraments and a spiritual director I have found places where I can be and speak honestly. In those moments the grip of fear is released so that the love of God can enter in. Then I can breathe and feel a little lighter. I pray I can walk more in love than fear this Lent.